[Pointing out that he meant not giving a damn in this particular situation rather than generally is probably not going to be well-received. He's also not forgotten her empathy - how could he? - and while that did not factor into his initial reaction to X's post, it did when he'd managed to rein in his racing thoughts. His own mental state added to X's would not have improved the situation for her, were they there together.]
It is for the root of that very truth that I needed time.
[As much as Devin wants to disappear, he has a responsibility to X. That burden is his to bear, not the reader's; figuring out how Devin could even help him was no simple task.]
The fact remains that you do not need to beat me with my own failures to get me to do something. I have not been sitting on my hands since the call.
[Turning words to justify his own self-hatred...holding it together when he was being so difficult, and trying to deal with X...If only knocking X out would fix things, but it would probably only give him a worse headache. If Devin had a fix or a way to help lessen the tension...now she was getting a headache.]
If I truly thought you a failure, I wouldn't expect more from you. I don't waste energy on idiots and fools.
Then perhaps you will consider something other than insults when you want to prompt me into action.
[Should he have gone to X immediately? There is an argument that goes both ways, and by now the past cannot be changed. At least now Devin has some vague semblance of a plan, rather than panic.]
I will be there in an hour, [he repeats]. And that is all I have left to say on the matter.
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It is for the root of that very truth that I needed time.
[As much as Devin wants to disappear, he has a responsibility to X. That burden is his to bear, not the reader's; figuring out how Devin could even help him was no simple task.]
The fact remains that you do not need to beat me with my own failures to get me to do something. I have not been sitting on my hands since the call.
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[Turning words to justify his own self-hatred...holding it together when he was being so difficult, and trying to deal with X...If only knocking X out would fix things, but it would probably only give him a worse headache. If Devin had a fix or a way to help lessen the tension...now she was getting a headache.]
If I truly thought you a failure, I wouldn't expect more from you. I don't waste energy on idiots and fools.
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[Should he have gone to X immediately? There is an argument that goes both ways, and by now the past cannot be changed. At least now Devin has some vague semblance of a plan, rather than panic.]
I will be there in an hour, [he repeats]. And that is all I have left to say on the matter.